Dimmed City Lights…For Now

August 18, 2009 at 3:36 pm (Uncategorized)

Okay, so if you have been following me on twitter (naomikeziah), you probably saw tons of tweets about me selling all my stuff and moving to NYC. Originally, I had planned to go in November when my lease was up. Day by day I was getting more and more frustrated with my life and current situation, I felt like I couldn’t go on! So I decided to just go.

The first problem with that was my apartment. I’m in a lease trap until the end of November and I saw no way out. I was leary of subletting, because that’s also against my lease agreement. I didn’t want bad lease ghosts lurking on my credit report. So I decided to find someone to just “watch” my apartment (and pay rent). Maybe if the landlord asked, I would say I’m on vacation or something and the person in the apartment is my cousin and they’re just there to water my fake plants. I don’t know, the plan was kind of sketchy and rushed to begin with,  I’ll admit that.

So I sold almost everything on craigslist except my sleeper sofa, tv, and some other living necessities. I even found a subletter! Monica and I (see pic!)

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had planned to go to NYC to look at apartments. So as soon as I found a subletter, I told Monica, and she quit her job! She was excited, so was I! The week before, I had quit my part-time job at Lord & Taylor. I hated selling shoes and to be honest spent a lot of time in the stock room trying on my favorites.

So I found the subletter on a Saturday and Monica and I had apartments lined up to see on Sunday and Monday. BUT Saturday night while I was out networking at a fashion show (will blog about later), I got this LONG essay of an email from my subletter saying they wanted to opt out of the deal. Basically, they thought I was trying to scam them because I asked them to pay all or most of the sublet stay upfront. Understandable! I could totally see how that would sound like a scam. But they also have to see it from my side, they could move in and move out and not tell me, then I’d be stuck paying rent in two cities! Anyway, they aren’t subletting anymore.

So I called Monica and we had to put everything on hold, because my apartment was the last herdle we had to jump, and we thought we did! Not the case, back to the starting line. Does anyone know how to get out of a lease? Ugh I hate that my apartment is holding us back, but I want my security deposit back and I don’t want them to mess up my credit report.

So I spent most of my Sunday and Monday BUMMMMMMMED about the way things turned out. I was looking for someone to jump in with tons of encouragement, and I’m glad I have positive people in my life who support me.

Well when am I going to move to NYC???!! I want to know too! It’s looking like the date is back to where it originally was, in November. I kinda feel like a slight innsie winsiee bit of failure on my part. I set certain goal and spoke certain things and was upset when they didn’t turn out the way I wanted. I’m a big beliver of speaking things you want to happen into existence. BUT then on the other hand, I know that the universe has to be in agreement, and maybe I was trying to jump the gun and the planet was like “fall back honey, wait a while.” So now I’m just trying to regroup and reenergize and press forward full speed! I am going to NYC!!!



  1. Jessica said,

    We are always our toughest critics so naturally we are harder on ourselves than anyone else would be. Don’t forget how far you’ve come over the past few months. You went from “hmmm, I think I should model” to “I am a model, I have a portfolio and connections with photographers and other people in the industry, and I have a fabulous blog website.” You rock, lady! Sometimes things are not according to our time, but that doesn’t mean that they won’t come in time. Practice patience and don’t consider this to be a failure in any way, shape or form because it is not. Perhaps this is the final test of whether or not you can go the distance, a test to see if you can wait it out just a little bit longer.

    And Naomi, you can absolutely go the distance. I know it!

  2. Malia said,

    Hi! you don’t know me- I literally stumbled across your blog via Toya M (I was an old teammate from her 1st college). I LOVE IT! I agree with the above commenter, you really paved your own way despite hurdles in your way. Keep on keepin’ on! You are what they call classically beautiful, i love your pictures!! When reading your post about NYC and what you said about the universe is so true. I’m a firm believer in the idea that everything happens for a reason. Things will certainly fall into place for you as long as you continue to play the part.

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